Month: December 2004

  • unstable and yet happy
    composed and yet uncertain
    active and agressive
    irresponsible and critical
    appreciative but still withdrawn
  • hmmm almost a month since last post...


    week before thankgiving, i actually got andy woo to go to a club on friday night.  it was a huge all asian dance club in hollywood.  i got him absolutely smashed and he probably barely remembers.  but, i think it was good for him.  managed to see erik when he visited on his whirlwind tour with nicole (the 12 hr only sale) the following saturday night.  good times.  sunday afternoon i took my car to get smog checked (car wash the only place i could find open on sunday to do it) and while i was waiting, had an absolutely amazing conversation with an old man there... we basically swapped life stories... he told me about growing up in the midwest... the people there... coming out here with his brother.. working in aerospace on a rival to the blackbird... he had a lotta insights and observations though... pretty intellgent and thoughtful guy. notably though, just before my car was done, he kinda had a comment outta left field... and kinda wistfully, looking upward said "most people don't make all that much.."  and well its true, though i'm aiming for the top... realisitically most people end up settling somewhere... and a lot really do just kinda scrape by... somehow it seemed extra profound coming from a nice old man sitting outside at the carwash watching the sun go down.


    went out in newport beach the night before thanksgiving for some wednesday night partying... sharkee's etc... newport beach kids are such yuppies... for some reason i decided if i had to make up a made up not cool sounding name to do them justice... i would call them all "fagotronic."  goodtimes though, all things considered.


    thanksgiving was alright... got to see the crazier side of my family i.e. the uncle who moved his whole family of home-schooled dyslexics to maui becuase "jesus told him to," even though he couldn't really aford it. 


    went snowboarding with josh and cameron (his stripper girlfriend and her friends bailed) the following satuday.  had a lotta fun in the blue sky warm morning but by 2pm clouds full of rain started rolling in and the place went down to zero visibility with 33 degree rain.  we were among the last on the moutain but by 3pm we just had to go.  too miserable.  even though i haven't managed to go much in the past years, i was still reasonably pleased to not suck.  other than falling over and down on top of a board edge (which left a bruise) while checking out some girls ass in the liftline, i barely fell at all.  (well okay i fell once more when i went over this big spine, caught some air only to see some little bastard was right in the landing i friggin hate when people think they can take a nap in the blind anding for a jump... so surprisingly i actually nailed the landing but ending up turning too hard/hazardoully to avoid killing the poor the little bastard... and i did this like cartwheel thing that i thought was a pretty cool way to avoid the kid but then i ended up kidna doing more like a roundoff and the board cracked right against the chest of some damn yuppy skier who exclaimed "hey watch it man" ... no, you jackass... YOU don't stand in the blind spot either.  so anyway, he had wut was comign to him. the kid well, so maybe the kid fell... but this dude was just standing there lollygaggin.)


    on the way back, we were worried about if it started to snow and they blocked the road and we'd be trapped, so we hurried... except it was bumper to bumper 10 mph the whole way down and it took like 3hrs to get off the mountain.  finally got down to riverside on the way home and stopped off for a bit at Will's place.  he was having some kinda jam session crap with some random fools (who were actually quite friendly) who play in a band called "the centerfolds," http://www.thecenterfolds.i-p.com/bio.html , who apparently are kind of growing in popularity around so cal (managed to find some songs of theirs on kazaa/limewire)... so Will (who plays bass/sings) was playing with his roomate jay (amazing skilled/kickass drummer) with tim and chris of "the centerfolds."  basically will needs to get back in a band after his last band, which was just starting to get radio play down here when they broke up.  so it was kinda this experimental thing where the guy chris from centerfolds wants to play this korg synthesizer and make some kinda industrial/punk hybrid.  it actually sounded somewhat cool, though will was yawning on his bass cuz he's a hardcore punk rock purest.  fun to watch though, a free live concert. 


    bought essentially a new computer midweek when my old one finally gave up.  in the autospy, i found literally 2 lbs of dirt in the power supply fan.  6 years!!! of chainsmoking bastards, rough college atmosphere etc... and i'd never bothered to blow the dust out... i think it was producing crappy voltage to the motherboard (which fried).  so i got an all new snazzy case (by Antec) with an airfilter and case fan that's super awesomely silent. and an asus motherboard with an athlon 64 chip... a new video card (ati radeon something with 128mb) and a tuner card so i can record tv on my computer.  it's nice to have a fully functional computer again. the old one had basically been slowly dying, losing one thing after another (usb finally went out the week before, which is made me realize it was serious... couldn't use my printer etc..)


    this past weekend (i.e. yesterday) friday night i found myself at yet another all asian club in hollywood, i swear it's some kind of hollywood conspiracy or something... really posh place. ran into two hopkins kids i can't remember... they said they were my year though and remember seeing me.  the girls name was stephanie, the guy said he was a film major who grew up in long island but had just moved to LA on his own for fun.  that is literally all i remember about them.  they seemed to have disappeared somewhere in the night, though i kept accusing random asian guys of being hopkins film major as i got drunk... cuz u know.. all asian people look alike when yer so wasted enough u can't even open yer eyes... muhahha... apparently they were a friend of mine's friend's roomates friends ;)   which sounds like a connection... but really is bordelining on absolutely nothing.  drank most of the $200 dollar bottle of jack for our table (yes isn't that annoying to have to pay $200 dollars for regular old crappy jack just so u can have a place to rest yer tired ass), got a lapdance from some random drunk girl i didn't know, came home and passed out in a pile of mexican food. 


    woke up late and it was raining in so cal.  what gives. went down to a sports bar to watch the usc game with james cuz usc kids all seem to be fans for life i think... talked with one guy i hadn't seen since high school (richard b.).  went to the gym to continue reading my tc boyle short stories... tc boyle is my favorite author of all time (for novembmer anyway) though i suppose sicne it's been december for almost a week, i guess  it's time to move on. finally ran the crack properly and installed cakewalk sonar 4.0 producer edition.  yay it has all kinds neat gizmos for producing music.  last night though, i sat home on my ass like a loser thanks to lovely combination of having only a few friends all with rather high bail to sit home on their ass rates.  slept in late again today... got all jealous my dad and sister got new cingular phones (the motorola v551 on tv) which has video recording... my worthless v501 looks identical but has camera but not video (though it plays video).  am i really so petty... *sigh* i was trying to trade.. but it's not going too well. and well... that's about...


    work is work... same ole crap... everyday i'm reminded of how i should go back to grad school or something... cuz damn i'm gonna be reeeally jealous in a week or so when college folks get long winter breaks and i'll be working... how do people work their whole goddamn lives? i'm just waaay too good at entertaining myself in my freetime i guess... i realize i think i define myself pretty much entirely by my hobbies/recreational life... and don't feel like work should take up so much of my time! but that's how it goes...


    my big fat obnoxious boss is the greatest show ever.  why does anyone ever watch the apprentice. this version is so so much better.  and much more honest too i think.


    that is all. over and out.


     

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